Mommy Misadventures

And I’m back!!!! Can’t tell you how happy I am to...

Tue, 17 Jul 2012 18:54:37 -0400

And I’m back!!!!

Can’t tell you how happy I am to be running again. I have a lot of ground to make up but I will NOT give up!

The next time I want to whine about a run...

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 13:07:08 -0400

…I need to remember how I feel right now, not being able to run. I hope this makes me grateful for all I CAN do when I am healthy and uninjured.

Daily Intention

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 11:37:52 -0400

theangrytherapist:

We are a million walking stories. Each story is valuable and precious. It makes us who we are. Most of us don’t like our stories. So we spend our days trying to rip out chapters without knowing that we can actually change our story, write new chapters. But only after we have accepted it.

Today, I will accept my story knowing that it’s the only way I can change it.

- Angry

Powerful words.

Slumping

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 09:51:27 -0400

I’ve been in such a funk lately. This whole toe thing, while minor in the scheme of things, is wearing on me. I feel myself getting depressed and more anxious by the day and I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve been going to my trainer but it isn’t enough. My eating sucks and my house is a mess. I’ve lost all motivation and have begun looking at fat clothes since alot of my clothes are now too tight.

unexpected day off...

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 09:27:25 -0400

…what to do, what to do…

It's hard to be done

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 20:28:13 -0400

I’m at a time in my life where I need to be done with having babies. A lot of people think I’m nuts for wanting to have more kids but it is what it is and sometimes it’s hard to change how one feels about something that is so emotional.

I’m trying really hard to come up with some positives for being done and that is what this post is about.

I can drink wine when I want without worrying about getting pregnant.
I can get a boob job if I want.
We are down to one kid at home and we have the freedom to do a lot more with her than if we had more kids.
I don’t have to worry about getting sick while pregnant (I have very hard pregnancies).
I can train harder and get that smokin’ body I’ve always wanted.

I welcome more positive ideas. This is so hard for me, I’ve spent my adult life being mom and I am kind of at a loss as to where to go now.

A Plateful

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 10:26:00 -0400

In my weigh in I said I have a plateful and indeed I do.

Aside from my broken toe, it just doesn’t seem like my family can catch a break. T called me from work Wednesday night at 1am because he thought he had a kidney stone. For this man to complain about anything means he was in pain that would knock a normal guy unconscious. Anyway, he didn’t have a kidney stone…he has 3 of them. He got home about 4am which means I was up pretty much all night.

Yesterday, C (who is my grandson, L’s, mom) texted and asked if she should worry about a rash in L’s mouth. After further questioning, she told me he had had a fever a few days before which means the rash is probably hand foot and mouth disease. Not serious, but highly contagious. Not long after this conversation I took Princess B’s temperature because she felt warm: 101.4 and likely she caught what L has. Sigh. No gym for me today and no dance class for her tonight.

My second daughter, M, was supposed to come into town this morning (from Chicago) and we were going to spend the day together and then she was going to babysit for us tomorrow. Her flight to Chicago was diverted because of storms and she ended up stuck in Indy overnight. She will be coming in later but no outlet mall shopping for us between Princess B’s fever and M getting in late.

I’m really hoping this is it for the week and that this weekend goes smoothly. I’m starting to feel a little overwhelmed here.

Now I’m off to try to get some housework done, which is extremely difficult and time consuming while in a boot. I just can’t stand how out of control my ~~life~~ house is.

"Instead of saying “I don’t have time” try saying “it’s not a priority,” and see how that feels...."

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 09:12:00 -0400

““Instead of saying “I don’t have time” try saying “it’s not a priority,” and see how that feels. Often, that’s a perfectly adequate explanation. I have time to iron my sheets, I just don’t want to. But other things are harder. Try it: “I’m not going to edit your résumé, sweetie, because it’s not a priority.” “I don’t go to the doctor because my health is not a priority.” If these phrases don’t sit well, that’s the point. Changing our language reminds us that time is a choice. If we don’t like how we’re spending an hour, we can choose differently.””

- Wall Street Journal on being busy (via snapcracklep0p)

W.I.F.

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 09:09:56 -0400

Highest Weight: 195

Last week: 184

Today: 183.2

Total lost this week: 0.8#

Exercise: 2 out of 3 gym sessions done

Food: meh. I could have done better and I will do better next week.

Goal for the coming week: increase water intake, decrease refined sugar

Not a great week but not bad either. I had alot on my plate (no pun intended!) and I think I handled it all pretty well. Details to follow!

Trying to Make the Best of Things

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 12:02:10 -0400

I was too upset yesterday to post my toe update. The doc said I’ll be in my boot for at least 3 more weeks, possibly longer. That not only puts me out of my upcoming race but really makes it difficult to work on losing weight that I so desperately need to lose. I feel like when I am able to start again, I’ll be starting from square one and I am so damn frustrated.

So, today I worked out with my trainer (upper body and abs) and am now sitting at home with my foot up, trying not to see the mess my house is in. I know things could be so much worse but right now I’m so sad to see something I worked so hard for slip away.

Toe Check Today

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 09:35:25 -0400

Today I go back to the doctor to get my broken toe rechecked. In a perfect world, he’ll tell me to lose the boot and start training again. My race is in a month.

Since this is not a perfect world and my toe (and foot) still hurt I’m not too optimistic.

Time to take a breath

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 07:25:37 -0400

Worked two days as relief charge and am REALLY glad I don’t do that all the time! Now it’s time to step back and take a breath…today is my first day off of three and I’ve already been filling it up with stuff to do.

Today is one of my trainer days. I always look forward to and dread it at the same time. This go-round, I got free biometrics so I will be picking up my new menu plans and doing initial measurements for my most current (and last) start over. I just hope it isn’t too complicated to turn these meals into family meals, I tried to pick accorndingly.

After the trainer, we are heading to Chicago for the day…first stop, the Shedd! I plan on making this day about having fun and relaxing. Well, as much as one can when toting around a 2 year old.

Speaking of 2 year olds, I didn’t have time to post about it Friday but Princess B’s dance class was a success and a failure at the same time. She loved it but she was “that” kid that ran around and not following directions. So much so that the teacher made sure to reassure me after class that it was normal, even though all the other kids followed directions. She is certainly spirited…sigh.

Pardon the blur, it’s hard to catch a moving target with an iPhone!

Now I’m off to get ready to leave for the gym. Have a great day everyone!

Jenn

I would totally pay for this!

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 06:53:05 -0400

I would totally pay for this!

Good news and bad news kind of day

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 09:37:29 -0400

I am trying to focus on all the good so we’ll get the bad out of the way first.

W.I.F.

184 this morning. Up from 182 last week which is frustrating since I’ve been cleaning up my act. Nothing to do about it but try harder I guess and not dwell on it.

It’s a beautiful day outside, we have shopping and Princess B’s first dance class today and I refuse to let a number get me down.

I also got some great news this morning: My oldest son, Robbie, is in boot camp. He was supposed to graduate last week but failed his PT test by 2 sit ups. Today, he texted me and let me know he passed and is not officially graduated and will be moving on to AIT. I am so proud of him for working so hard even though he was struggling. He never gave up and I need to take a page from his book today!

Have a great day everyone!

Jenn

My Come to Jesus

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 10:14:35 -0400

tap…tap…tap…does this thing still work?

Welcome to what I call my “come to Jesus” moment. No, this is not a religious post…nor is it meant to be offensive to Christians (I am one). I’ve just recently had an awakening, an a-ha moment, if you will, and I feel the need to share it with cyberspace and try to get my life back on track.

I’ve been away from here for awhile and without even this little bit of accountability, I feel like I’ve been skating along. I’ve been doing ok…holding steady anyway…but making no progress. I continue to run, see the trainer weekly, and eat well maybe half the time. But I’m still unhappy with myself and haven’t lost a pound.

So here’s what happened:

I’d been going along, half-assing my training and my eating and doing alot of whining about how fat I feel and that I couldn’t seem to lose a pound or go down any sizes. I ran the Indy mini and finished it but alot slower than I wanted to and was really quite discouraged and disappointed in myself.

Then, 3 weeks ago, it happened. I was trying to get some things done quickly and I wasn’t paying attention to my surroundings and I ended up breaking my toe. Being the person I am, I ignored it and worked 2 shifts at work before my husband made me go to get x-rays. I’ve been in a boot ever since.

I’m lucky. There was no joint involvement. I haven’t been able to run, though, and I’m going stir crazy. I have another half marathon in a month and I’ll be lucky if I can walk it. I’ll know more at my follow up appointment next week.

So that’s how it all started. I was given ALOT of extra time to think and dwell and, unfortunately, eat. Five pounds later, I’d had enough.

I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I want to take control of my body and my lifestyle and not let it all control me. I want to get dressed in the morning and have the first thing I pull out of my closet fit me. Getting dressed is such an emotional ordeal for me!

So, here I am. I always did better when I was blogging daily an being held accountable for my actions…cheered on when I did well and encouraged when I faltered.

For the rest of this month, my goals are:

See my trainer twice a month
Weigh in on Fridays and ONLY Fridays
Follow the diet plan given to me by my trainer
Modified cardio daily (pool work, shadow boxing, any other suggestions?)
Daily blogging, even if it’s just to check in

If you made it this far, thank you and I hope you weren’t bored to tears.

Until next time,

Jenn

Trainer day

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 07:57:57 -0500

Every Wednesday! I have been going back to the trainer consistently now for over a month. Right now I’m still at the dread/love stage. Last week we did alot of upper body strength so I’m thinking this week we’ll either focus on cardio or endurance. I hope it’s not legs. Doing legs always makes it so difficult getting on and off the toilet.

Not flaking...promise!

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 08:28:28 -0500

Wow…6 days since I was last able to post! Between my last final exam of the semester and working my 3 12’s I have literally not had the time to be here “visiting”.

So, you ask, what have I been up to? Well, I’ll tell you, the last 6 days have seemed to fly by! I don’t know that I got a whole lot accomplished but it was a pretty good week, I think.

Tuesday and Wednesday are usually stay at home days with a visit from my grandson in the afternoon. Last week, I decided I wanted to do Christmas crafts and we had a blast!

We made handprint Christmas trees:

and felt ornaments:

Princess B was sick so training had to be re-scheduled but I’m really proud of the fact that I only re-scheduled by 1 day and not 1 week. So, Thursday was my weekly torture session last week and can I just say wow!? Bench presses, curls, squats (with and without weights), lunges (with and without weights), back extensions, rowing machine, and the ropes. I followed all that with a 1 mile run. I was really expecting to be unable to move my arms the next day but the soreness was minimal, thank goodness! I must be getting stronger than I think!

That brings us to the weekend and work. This was my week to do 3 in a row. It doesn’t sound so bad on paper but the reality of working 3 “12” hour shifts in a row is entirely different, as I’m sure some of you know. I put 12 in quotes because when is a 12 ever a 12? Add to that the fact that I was transport/rescue the first 2 and was unable to get any breaks…well let’s just say, I earned my pay this weekend.

So what are the plans for this week? The last frantic week before Christmas? Today I will be going to the gym with T (though I really don’t know what I want to do other than run the track) followed by last minute Christmas shopping.

Tuesday is the family Christmas with his side.

Wednesday it’s back to the trainer.

Thursday is a girls’ shopping trip to Chi-town.

Friday I work.

Saturday is Christmas in our house this year. Both T and I have to work on Christmas day.

So, here’s to a full week with hopefully good food choices and good times with the family.

What do you all have planned?

(p.s. I apologize if the pictures don’t show up…I’m having issues. Anyone have time to email me on how to post pictures properly? I’ve tried everything!)

Flexible is my middle name

Tue, 13 Dec 2011 08:41:16 -0500

Princess B is sick. I found this out by being wakened up in the middle of the night and being told “sleep in mommy’s bed, peeeez?” Aside from the fact that I hate when my little one isn’t feeling good (is there anything more pathetic than a toddler who feels like crud but still tries to be smiley?), I also have to re-do all my plans for my days off. Which include the gym and the trainer. I’m very proud of the fact that instead of just cancelling I changed my trainer appointment to a day when T is home to watch Princess B. I may not get the extra trip to the gym in this week but I NEED that trainer session for my mental well-being.

So what’s on the agenda for today? Currently, I am drinking coffee and snuggling on the couch with my little sick one. Today is cross-training day so I’ll probably end up doing 30DS followed by a walk on the Dreadmill. Other than that, I am going to putter: wrapping presents, working on Christmas cards, laundry, and baking. Except for Princess B not feeling well, it sounds like a perfect day!

I suppose I should touch on my attitude problems from yesterday. I’m better today. I really need to learn to stop letting other people’s actions (or lack of actions!) affect how I feel. I am generally a happy person and I hate when I feel like I did yesterday.

Oh I almost forgot! I need to work on my January and 2012 goals today! I’m actually kind of excited about it even though I didn’t do so well on my 2011 goals. 2012 will be my year…I feel it!

So - so

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 21:14:11 -0500

Today was so-so. I came in under my calorie goals and did my long run today but I just don’t feel like I accomplished all I set out to do. I am here, though, so I suppose that counts for something.

Tomorrow is a new day. I think I’ll get a good night’s sleep and try to re-start my attitude in the morning. Right now I’m all grumbly and cranky.

smile-sweat-learn: Avocado Mac & Cheese I woonnddeerrr…....

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 17:51:22 -0500

smile-sweat-learn:

Avocado Mac & Cheese

I woonnddeerrr…. c:

This looks amazing…can’t wait to try it!